I thought maybe I should explain why I picked “Mindful Health Gal” as the name of my blog. It actually started as a new Instagram handle back in January 2017. It was the new year and of course I was super motivated for change… my “new year’s resolution” was to just get to a healthier place, physically and mentally. I didn’t want to set specific goals, or follow a specific plan, but I’m a planner and a control freak, so “going with the flow” was not something I managed to do very well. I just wanted to feel better, sleep better, look better… BE better. But, in hindsight, I didn’t know how to do that nor was I in a head space to try to make the big changes I wanted to make. I wanted (still want) that all so bad, but in the course of a day or two I would just get too overwhelmed by all the rules or goals I would set that I would just collapse with anxiety and give up. Life slowly crept up on me and started to just to be too much… and here I am. But among all those goals, no matter what I might have said out loud, what I wanted to work on most was being more mindful. Mindful, to me represents being present. Being present in the moment, no matter what that moment is. This idea was introduced to me a few years ago in a group therapy session, and although I never came close to mastering it, it was a concept that has stuck strongly with me. Mindfulness is a state of active, open attention on the present. When you're mindful, you observe your thoughts and feelings from a distance, without judging them good or bad. Instead of letting your life pass you by, mindfulness means living in the moment and awakening to experience. (https://www.psychologytoday.com/basics/mindfulness) I constantly feel like I was missing out on my daughter’s life. I feel like time was constantly flying by and I was just watching my life from the outside. I spend the majority of days worrying about things that may happen or problems that might come up. I beat myself up for the cookie I ate yesterday, by completely giving up on healthy eating and binging. I am almost always feel in a place of “unrest.” I long for peaceful hours… peaceful days. I realized I don’t really know how to relax. Sure, I can sit with my feet up, but my mind is constantly going or I’m making lists (physically or mentally) about all the things I think I should be doing. I know that all of these things I struggle with will improve as I work to become more mindful. So, here are my short term goals to help me get their…
I’m sure this list will grow over time but part of being mindful is know that I’m in a fragile place right now and I need to lower my expectations. I think making mindfulness a priority will lead me to a much better place mentally and physically – to become healthier all around. So, as I sit here today and wrap up this post, I am not a Mindful Health Gal… but my goal is to get to a place where I live the life my blog name promotes. XO, Katie
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AuthorMy name is Katie and I am just a woman struggling in the deep throes of depression and anxiety hoping to go on (and document) a journey to find PEACE and share it with anyone who may feel alone in a similar journey. Archives
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